Do you ever find yourself feeling weary of striving? Perhaps feeling “off?” A common pattern I see when I feel this type of “weariness” is a misalignment between my behaviors and beliefs. When I find myself repeatedly distracted and my good intentions readily overwhelmed, I notice I have not been as heartfelt in my prayer time and Bible reading, (which are core values of mine).
I say, “heartfelt” because I think it’s easy to just go through the motions of my morning devotional in order to check-off the “good Christian” box for the day. But if I do that without connecting with Jesus in a meaningful manner, of what value is it? I may as well sleep in. But what I really want and need is an authentic relationship with Jesus. Don’t we all? Don’t we all just want the real deal?
God’s Word lights up my life, bringing truth and direction to it. His purpose for me through his Spirit bears fruit. Time with him never returns empty. I may not always see it. But I live by faith in his will. In his goodness. That comes through an honest relationship with Jesus. The kind I have when no one else is watching. Not a task I check off my “to do” list because I strive to be “good.”
That’s where weariness stems from — the disconnect between what I value and what I do. Because it messes with who I am. Since I truly desire an authentic connection with Jesus, time with him is not only a blessing, it is a necessary lifeline. It is always time well spent.
Your word is a lamp to guide my feet and a light for my path. (Psalm 119:105, NLT)
It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it. (Isaiah 55:11, NLT)